redemption.

i'm pretty messed up... as deranged as i seem at times and non-sensical especially on this blog, i know how to control myself. sometimes i might seem to lose my edge a little but i am more sensitive than i seem if you get to know me. theres extremely little things that will touch me really hard, somebody might not think it's significant but the one bad and good thing about me is that i remember things, especially bad things i seem to remember for a long long time and i dont forget. some people say you don't hold grudges but i hold every negative sentiment and feeling within me and i never let it go. i remember almost every single bad thing people have done to me and although i may act kind and good on the outside, i'm not a good person really. people are lucky laws bind this world together.

at the moment there is just so many things going on with university coming to an end. i really want something to bump myself out of this strangled reality but i'm falling further into its flow. im half normal, half messed up but thats who i am...