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// On :November 8, 2014
i've calmed down. life isn't really a stand still no matter how much pain and agony you feel throughout your life. there are always new things, new emotions and new things to be found if you just continue to live. they might not be sudden and it might feel like every moment in your life you're just waiting for it to come because in reality time isn't as fast as you would like it to be sometimes and at other times, it's too fast. that's one of the most fascinating things about life. you're thrown into this world without a thing, just a body but you develop bonds with people, you develop your own personality and as you grow older you continue to change. i know i have.
when i was younger, even looking back less than a year ago, every moment i continue to live i feel like i am growing and becoming someone better. i used to be much more naive, nervous and anxious about everything. more wary... more stressed but although those same stresses exist i changed in an unknowing way. life as you live it isn't stagnant at all. there are moments when you freeze but it just keeps going.. really.. it just keeps going. maybe slowly but it will move on and i feel like slowly overcoming these fears within me, the problems that arise and overcoming then i'll be able to feel satisfied with myself. sometimes you're faced with the same problems in different scenarios but every mistake you make, every feeling you feel stays with you and you'll be able to move on. i know i can move on. time is a beautiful thing, it keeps you forever changing. everything i've experienced up to now... im full of memories and i am still young. looking back at everything that has happened in my life, i am grateful, confident and feel reassured that i can keep going. even though its hard, i want to reach the end with a smile on my face without regrets. there are a lot of good moments and a lot of hard moments in life but they are what really help you grow. its cliche, but its the truth. so im just trying to be at peace with who i am and the choices i have made in my life. there are times when i might rewind and hurt, but i know it will pass. people are stronger than they give themselves credit for, and with the fragility of life, there is the wonder in it.. so... everyone including myself, dont give up on life. it is beautiful no matter how you choose to live it and there are beautiful things to be found as long as you continue.
