redemption.

i rewatched 5 centimeters per second after hearing this song again:



i was just reading...

"5 centimeters per second, the speed at which cherry blossoms falls. its an allegory to life.
acceleration due to gravity is 9.8m/s squared. compared to that 5 cm/s is very, very slow.

like cherry blossoms, most of us in the beginning of our lives are all clumped together and close to our friends, family and loved ones. but as we grow, slowly but surely, we grow apart from most of them. aside from our family, it is extremely rare for us to be able to be with the same people we were close to in the beginning. just like how rare it is for two cherry blossoms to be close to one another when they fall to the ground."

this movie is really beautiful.. and life really is like a cherry blossom tree with us as the cherry blossoms. we flourish beautifully until we slowly fall and disappear far away from those you slowly spent your time with. after rewatching it, i feel different feelings. i've grown up a little but surely, the first time i watched it i was in high school and i didnt understand a lot about life but since then ive experienced a lot. pain. love. losing friends. it makes me feel this deep tight feeling around my heart and it hurts to breath. its like my hearts being restrained.

it makes me feel the meticulousness of my life. i never ever really felt like i was ever in the moment, im always looking away from whats in front of me and because of that i have lost a lot of opportunities and things in my life. i feel like im stuck in a dream, not in this world. this song just makes me slow down, and makes me want to crawl up into a ball and cry into my pillow... my heart really feels tight. i dont know how else to describe it. the song is so simple but it makes tears run down my face... not sad just.. tears...