redemption.

my body aches and yearns and im fighting every inch of my body trying to resist. my brain, heart and body are going against everything they believe in and its tearing me to pieces. i just feel so weak right now...

my insecurities have always surfaced when im like this but every fear is haunting me and practically choking me to death. i need.. something that will keep me going. im really plunging down here and im feeling more alone than i ever have. in so much pain.