redemption.

theres not enough to smile about. no matter how i look at it, im always taken for granted to the point where im looking in the mirror and not even knowing myself. eighteen years of nothing. i know ive been disregarded. im not somebody that people look to, only when im right in their face and theres no other way to look. ive tried every approach but when it comes down to it, im only living for myself. sometimes you just need the reassurance that you matter. seeking that in different ways, i feel like life has become a game where im constantly trying to prove myself  to no one but myself. im the player and the judge and inevitably the game over.