redemption.

i think i hold myself accountable for too many things. i keep my responsibility too high, i always look out for others and never take care of myself. everyone i know i would be willing to give more to them then i would ever receive, and i have, time after time. these sort of things are meant to be built on trust. i just find myself dissatisfied with everything lately, myself included.

for once i think i miss being able to talk about something with a little more meaning in my life to people, to someone. reminds me of the time i was on the phone for 7-8 hours which is something because if anyone knew me i don't really like to talk on the phone much, most of the time i can't even be bothered to talk.. sad memories.