redemption.

people say live a life without regrets. but its so much more.

my friend the other day was telling me how we only live for our dreams, they surpass everything else... but than im sitting here and saying, i have no dreams, no aspirations for something better, the only thing i want to do right now is have fun, be with friends, succeed in life. but even then i don't know if i truly want that. i've been telling myself that i need to live a life of fun. im stuck in a tragic life. its because ive got such high standards for everything, im in an age where everything i look at is based on superficial expectations. i expect and want things that aren't and wouldn't be plausible. and i think about things which shouldn't need to be thought about.

take for instance, if one day i just got up and left the country, went to another city without telling anyone. id never ever see anyone i know ever again. thats how easy our connections with other people can be cut off.
take for instance again, i get plastic surgery to fix something i don't like about myself, everyone will look at me different and id lose friends based on doing something id want. everything and everyone is superficial nowdays.. learning from drama, tv, other people, actions thats part of life and now i cant even question whats for better and whats for worse.
thats why although we should live a life without regrets, im stuck in a world full of them.