redemption.

the other day i overcame that thing that i said i couldn't do when i got cancelled on. (: and i had fun... even though i was studying but somehow i wake up in the morning and im still thinking everythings just so crap!

even though this is a time of my life where im meant to be making decisions and everything, im still just as indecisive as i was in year 10, im still just as clueless as i was in yr 9, im still just as useless as i was in yr 8 and im still just as socially lost as i was in yr 7. im just never satisfied with whats happening around me. i had a dream last night, and it just confirms all these insecurities, so heartbroken when i woke up... yeah... i woke up because i was in someones apartment, and there was a hen coop underneath a big basket thing and than one of them got out and it like ran at me and i was like AAHHH. -wakes up. a little random right? :) but it was the best dream ive had in ages, pity i can never sleep properly in my bed anymore, i always end up diagonal on my bed and my head seems to fall off or my feet. :s

need a little comfort or reassurance in my life.