redemption.

what is life, what is it to you? im not sure.. do you know the answer :/ you think about it every now and then, not too often but at some point in your life you'll stop and think, what is the purpose of my existence, why do i live? is it to earn some petty cash in some crappy occupation or is it to bludge off other peoples money and sit at your computer writing up blogs. tsch. whatever it is its up to you to choose what you want to be, and the type of person you want to be.
do you really want to sit at a computer all day playing games, or going to the beach everyday.
;o i just realised that everytime i think of something i think of the negative side of it, whats it called? pessimistic? . and in the first place why does anyone think being pessimistic is a bad thing, what do you want to be optimistic about everything. "hey look, everybody that i ever cared about in my life hates me! yay? isnt it such a great day look at the weather, 'god' must be enjoying this." what is god anyway, sure church is fun, maybe thats the reason for god, so people can enjoy having something to work for, maybe thats why they exist, priests, monks, mm. monks are awesome (:
anyway, what was i rambling on about ? -thinks for 5 minutes. (and yes i just type what ever comes into my head and i don't care about spelling mistakes, if your even reading this, you better be pretty bored. or enjoy reading my pointless blog. (: )
christmas is approaching! doesnt feel like it to me though. i wish it would snow, i love snow (: alright im just going to sleep now. (: good nightt.. i can't think of anything else today, too sleepy!!! god i hate people which ignore what you say when you say it to them 10 times. and than ask you exactly the same thing.. ALRIGHT THATS ALL. good night ~ ^^