redemption.

if theres one thing for certain, the heart and the mind don't move at the same pace. sometimes there are moments recently where i just suddenly lose myself and break down. when im driving. when im about to sleep. pretty much when im alone i can't be stable. im even crying again now. every little thing ticks me off and im finding it hard just to keep going... i cant even tell anyone... i cant show that im weaker than i look so i keep pushing forward pretending that im strong enough when i just wish that my life could rewind. my heart says one thing while my minds trying to push on and im just hurting still and it feels like it will never really go away.