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// On :October 23, 2014
its
my 21st birthday this saturday. i feel really young and like i haven't done
anything significant in my life up until now and even though i'm only 21, at
the moment im unemployed, no internship and my marks are average at university.
everything just normal. i tried to splurge on myself today and i bought myself
an expensive shaver but even that only gave me a little heightened feeling. im
feeling pretty numb and dull at the moment and like i dont know where ill be
heading forward for the next few years. i think its partially worse because i
injured my wrist and i cant go to gym and im scared i wont be able to make
coffee or anything later in the future. things aren't really looking up for me
but they're not looking down either. i know i'm still young and theres no
constrictions or set path in life but theres always this view that you need to
take this path to get somewhere good in life. i'm not even sure to be honest
but thats just how things are. i need to cheerup a little and look at the
brighter things. the highlight of my days aren't significant and i feel like
everythings just going numb. i dont have any good friends at the moment and
most the people i know dont take the effort to talk to me anymore but ive
somehow just settled for that. the best friends i had were at my work or gym
but i cant even do either now and once you stop seeing people they disappear
out of your life. things are looking pretty bleak and im just trying to be okay
about everything. things will cheer up in a month hopefully. :)
