redemption.

my minds wandering and im not sure when its going to stop. i haven't been able to sleep much lately, its scary, this world it is. youre thrown into circumstances which you can't predict, youre stuck in circumstances you thought were okay and somethings always wrong. theres no perfection in this world, at least around me, im not asking for it, its just.. when youre not sure whats right and whats wrong, when you dont know where to go or what to do with yourself and youre just going on then i find it hard. im by myself a lot of the time. i really feel isolated when theres actually nobody to hold on to. i keep looking for something, somebody to grab and be able to lean on. i want to be happy with myself but im always scared of something. unsure of something else. and in the end i just feel alone with only one hope in the world.