redemption.

i really need to break out of this. everything i want is unrealistic. everything i can get doesn't seem enough. everything i have is unappreciated. im just at a stand still with reality. i look left, right, up, down and theres nothing, i look back and its depressing, i look forward and realistically its more depressing. i cant even do anything about myself anymore and i dont know why im so lost up in nothing... i guess as time goes, friends disappear.