redemption.

i've just been waiting my whole life, just waiting, not chasing, i dont even know what to do. just hoping, can't see it, don't know what else that i can do. don't know why i can't remember, what i thought was right for me.. don't know why. im still chasing. even though i think im waiting. only hoping. can't even take this last breath no more.

im at the age where i can't sit around and let my life play itself out anymore. all my life i've just been waiting and just going with whatever but now in every single step of my life theres new steps to be made, ive realised that but i still can't take those steps. people don't need me in their life anymore. im just that edge of their steps, that crumbles if you walk on it, never part of the middle. only once i've crumbled down can i start to build new better steps.