redemption.

i miss that sense of normality i had in my hsc studying days. i woke up early every morning to drive to macquarie university to study all day. everyday was set out, everyday was straight forward, everyday i didn't have to worry about all the real life problems. my parents cared about me and would pay for food and everything, now i come out of it and im poor and i cant even afford to use my drivers license, pay for a phone or anything. i miss being able to drive to the library without a worry, not having to worry about petrol lying back and being happy listening to the same music play on repeat on the cars radio. i miss being able to go library and knowing ill see my friends. people i like and even people i dont like. the 14 hours that passed seemed like nothing, now even a minute seems like a lifetime. i got there early in a hope that i would be able to see my friends for longer, study harder and become a better person. now im struggling and not living. the sad thing is if i never came back, no one would honestly care.