redemption.

guilt trapping people is the worst you can go. especially if its done intentionally. theres enough worries, enough insecurities i have with myself without people constantly pushing me to do things. pressure, guilt trapping, problems, its too much for one person to handle sometimes. i think thats why i can't wait til i go overseas, its going to be the most chill time of my life i've had in a while. previously when i went overseas it was more like obligation to go but this time i am actually looking forward to escaping from everything here in sydney. i don't owe anyone a thing. theres no one off the top of my head who i can think of that i owe anything. no ones really been there for me more then ive been there for them. ive done more favours then ive received and when im overseas, what can i do for anyone there. nothing. thats where my peace of mind comes in. its a little sad to say but when i leave sydney i won't miss anyone. i don't see people in sydney that much. and the only people i care about enough to miss are coming with me or im going to meet up with. this is my life, this is how my week has been. this is a terrible blogpost. don't even know what im typing again. need to appreciate smaller things sometimes.

i hate it when people get complacent. im not gonna sit here forever. people who stay like that im not going to be your friend forever. friendship goes both ways. everyone has feelings no matter how insignificant they may be.