redemption.

dare you to move, like today never happened, today never happened.. maybe redemption has stories to tell, maybe forgiveness is right where you fell, where can you run to escape from yourself......

its hard to get up each day and move, honestly. its getting harder and harder to forget and forgive and everyday when i try, its honestly like im just running into a wall. im getting nowhere and its only hurting myself. my eyes are so dry that they can't even get teary properly, thats what i get for staying up all night talking to myself.. its a bad habit. 20 minute power nap sleep. yay.. but truly, and honestly, its just too hard. i can tell myself, hey cameron, get up, try and have fun and give everything and anything your best and live with no regrets but when it comes down to it, my poker face still on, most of the time anyway, i try... and try... and in the end im down 100 and feeling just as crap as i was yesterday if not worse. cheers to my friends but for having a good night. everyone had fun, i had the best sleep of my life.

theres so much to be grateful for in this world, theres just so many beautiful things that i should be grateful for, that i want to be grateful for but everything just feels fucking emptier than nothingness.