redemption.

woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo. everybody, no more internal exams, i have no exams for 56 days until HSC. :D this is the life. im meant to be completely chill and all but even though my shoulders feel a little lighter after sunday, im still tense as. i love this though honestly, just listening to ugly by 2ne1 and watching the rain outside sprinkle. its beautiful (: but even though times like these are what im meant to be treasuring, always feel lonely somewhat. time to blog all the things ive been thinking about over the last week or so.

well, ive pretty much said everything big i wanted to say when i was off my head so... yeah. i actually have nothing that big i want to say. im pretty content with life at the moment, ive learnt not to give a shit about anything big even though i can say it, im only slowly being able to do it. like.. if you dont give yourself wholeheartedly to something or someone, the disappointment isnt as bad. fuck, human life is so fragile. can be gone in a moment. i try not to think about it, live with what i got. gotta strive on, no matter what insecurities i have, no matter how bad im doing in life it will never be over. i dont need anybody or anyone else to tell me that because ive matured enough to realise a lot of things. i can be friends without liking the person, as long as i like their company, make me smile, make me happy thats all i really need. i can keep a mutual relationship, smiling and all without even remotely liking the person as long as life goes on without too many bumps because what truly matters in the end is that i have friends who would care for me and that im still alive for them to care for and vice versa. gaming time.