redemption.

everytime i watch maribelle anes, i can see the emotion in her eyes and it gives me hope. her words especially some of my favourite of her songs, it just touches me y'know. i've been doing fuckall lately. i've been going library a few times and getting some work done but it feels like my brain is still just as empty as the day before. i swear, everyday going by im still getting more and more pissed. some white kid tried to start me today and i told him to fucking come at me and honestly i wanted him to try, i wouldve beat the shit out of him, and its self defense. its pathetic how people like him think he can treat me the way he wants me to and thats why he's the one walking away. i love 2ne1 more and more, i love formspring questions which make sense and at school all im doing is updating my own personal document lists. if people found them, they'd honestly be surprised... good thing nobody knows what im doing and they definently don't read my blog, its not even posted anywhere, neither is my formspring. most people probably don't realise that, i don't go facebook advertising that i want more questions although i do. i don't go adding randoms on facebook anymore in hope that having more friends will make me look more popular. fuck it all, friends are friends and if people want to ask me questions they will. i don't know what to talk about or what im thinking about anymore, talking to people really doesn't help does it? just waiting for that day exams finish.