redemption.

despite the fail spelling in the quote. best friends. its a nice thought.

every decision in life, you have to live with the rewards but also the consequences. every little thing in you do in life can have repercussions and they can come at you at the most unexpected points in time. for someone like me, ive just been living my life uncertain of the things that come in front of me, unsure when i make decisions. indecisive. for someone like me, ive just been living my life unable to know what i want, and unable to strive for it. still indecisive. for someone like me, do i even deserve a reward. im just so unsure about myself, my desires and everything. there were times in the past where i felt like i had friends by my side for whatever things come by and having that reassurance helped me to grow but now when i think about it, theres only so far you can go. once again, friends come and go. distance separates us, time separates us and worst of all the decisions you make may separate us, if there is room for forgiveness in this world you should take it because every single friend is precious. having somebody there who you know you can rely on, somebody who will stay by you through hard times and good times, its really irreplaceable.

nobody is the same. all friends are different and so unconsciously you treat them on different levels and in different ways. you judge them by their decisions and actions, that is undeniable and a problem within ourselves. yet it can also be a blessing. not everybody is worth your time, you can't judge the individual worth of each individual, each person shouldn't have the right to be above another but in our world now, thats just how it is. smarter people dominate not as smart people, stronger people dominate not as strong people and more popular people dominate those not popular people. and every single one of us as individuals, knowing that we're not the best at something feel inferior in aspects. but thats just how it is, because what you may lack in this area you may make up for in another as long as you have the determination to keep on going. but once again... saying things isn't doing things and thats where friends come in handy. our lives are based around our relationships with others, and as independent as you'd like to think you are, nobody is independent. from the day we were born we all depend on others to keep on going with life as we go it. by helping one another, we can move forward and once again... friends, having a great time of them, those moments are truly irreplaceable.

so as an individual, as a human being all i can do is cherish those moments i had, hope for new ones and hope that each day i can keep living strong, by my own values, meeting new people and embracing life as it is and once again... to be happy.