redemption.

just this afternoon i was considering just killing my blog, i was thinking how pointless my blog posts are, sort of time consuming and whether they actually serve any purpose whatsoever. apparently, the cbox does for random white strangers though, least they're complimenting me though. (: no arguments there - oh.
and i wanted to change my blogskin but i really don't have the effort to. (: heh. just want a plain one, cbox - and blog posts down the middle with a nice background. perhaps one time i shall have completely free time in which i am not too effortless to go do it. :L

anyways, this weekend was so-so . my friend slept over on saturday after coaching and left 4:30ish on sunday, so i've been on a low since then. (: keep on thinking, oh cameron you should go exercise, everyone else is so much more fit than you go do something about it, why you so weak cameron whyy, why not big enough. whyy D: but i really never end up doing anything about it. need some motivation cameron - (: exams are over, was pretty happy about that. almost fell asleep in coaching with the substitute chemistry teacher, just leaving me there. than i had to chew some gum to keep me awake for the rest of the time so i'd choke on it if i wasn't paying attention ? does that work :L hahh..
seeing things now, makes me regret a lot, ok , a whole fucking dam lot. its too late, i keep telling myself - but yeah. it is too late.

thanks for the formspring posts people. (: keep me entertained, but really - no need to double post :L if you strain your eyes hard enough that number says 44. - and if you strain harder you can have a look at how i organise my beautiful mozilla firefox icons.