redemption.

got home, watched a bit of anime than sat at the computer not doing anything hoping someone would talk to me on msn. :\ i dont know what im really hoping for.. uhh like.. doesnt matter.
yeah, ulquiorra is a pretty neat character. (: he just wants to beat the fuck out of ichigo to make him realise his useless, and make him feel superior? isn't that what everyone wants to do.
i had quite a few cravings today, wanted to beat the fuck out of something still, umm wanted to get on my computer but the downside of being on my computer is there isnt people to keep me company.. D: not that i need people its just.. bahhhhhhhh.
anyways, i didn't do any work again, shower -> bed. lovely isnt it. (: got another basketball game again, im really not in any shape anymore D: my left shin is totally fucked up and hurts whenever i jump, should really get it looked at.. but that would be unmanly, peoples been through worse pains it just restricts my jump .. and . bah. D; i really want to get better at things, everything in general i really do.. but sometimes you just can't put the effort in, you dont know how, you think you dont know how, lots of thinking. do i want this? do i want that?... ngah.
well today was eventful anyways even though i barely remember any of it, had extended maths cus of naplan and someone got double dacked... good thing i wasnt there, i kept on teasing him. (: oh.. and than played some basketball, they keep on telling me oh cameron you can do it.. heh so good cameron. fuck no. fuck no . just fuck you. fuck fuck fuck fuck. fuck is such a useless swear word, just toss it in anywhere to make the thing more emphasised.

change.