redemption.

ok first of all, this is just spam ok, no pictures, after my fucking happy surge for the last couple of days i have to blog all about it. i was too tired the rest of the days, but i just got a sudden burst of energy so its all good. (: ill start off on friday, and it gets better. this is just gonna be like a summary of what i did ;S and than ill go into all those little details which made it funnn. i have good memory for this sort of stuff. no basketball/anime lately D: i havent even worked out properly. -stab i better tomorrow OK .

FRIDAY : danana, on friday i went to paintball with most of the people who i dont even like, and i fucking shooting them with paintballs. i had to wake up at 5:30 when i went to bed at 1:30-2ish. WOOPS. hahhaha, ok . i freaking woke up at 5:30 and texted people just because i could :) but at the end of the day i realised i only had $30 credit left ;o woops. WELL, i got up, got driven to the station :) yay. and than caught the 6:43 train to epping got there about 7:30 and got a lift to the paintball place where we got lost on the way due to their great sense of direction. (: but we got there in timeee, so than we had to put freaking overall things on and go through safety crap and it was bloody hot ok. D: than we had 200 paintballs each and went to different fields, like capture the flag etc. the first one was a tire field, the second was a graveyard thing, than we went back for a drink after we were all bloody sweating D: i only used 30 balls at that point and i had 4 kills! 1 headshot ahaha. but i got hit in the back once. D: than we went to some stupid field with like... four sided triangle things coming out of the ground and wasted most of my bullets for basically no kills (: but it wasn't too bad. oh and than we went to some jungle base thing.. where i got hit in the neck that bloody hurt! D: and i was like in pain for 30 seconds and than i was ok. and than we went to a 'mine field' and fucking nuked everyone with our remaining paintballs. yay... wasnt that fun actually. for fucking $50, made it worse when i had to fucking wait an hour for them to drive the other guys to the station and than only me the second round because even though they drove me there they couldnt drive me back to epping so they fucking ditched at blacktown by myself after i fucking waited ages. so we ended at 11:30 i got to blacktown station at 1 because they weren't taking me back because they're not my friends, just needed me for numbers. anyways, i waited fucking 30 min for the train and my PSP ran out of bloody battery D: so i got on the train after waiting 20 min without a psp and it was airconed! D: happiness i went upstairs and fell asleep in the train and i tried texting a bit made me sleepy and i was asleep than some stupid random called me! someone call them and piss them off i dont have enoughh credit, 0430477011. GET THEM !! oh and heres how the call went :
them: hey
me: uhh-... getting up yeahhh, hey?
them: where are you?
me: --- on a train?
them: oh, where are you going?
me: home...
them: -awkward silence fucking laughter in the background i swear
me: bye... -hangs up - fucking weirdos.
-falls back to sleep

That was the highlight, fucking nice train ride. :) than i got home by 3 and had a cold showerrrr wahh. so nice.

OK, than saturday i just spent doing nothing.. had a few happy moments on msn etc.
SUNDAY:
yayay, olympic park. my mum was like oh its going to rain. etc etc etc. D: and im like IDC , im fucking going ok. -finally gets going and gets there at 10:30 with two bikes and CALPIS. all frozen... yum. oh and than i saw cadmus, kerry and jeffery so i got off and waited at other side of train station, luke came -dances and skips boring part - oh and than alice and claz and andrew were on the other side of the station so we ran over thereeee on our bikes yay. and than a fucking guy was trying to race me! so i chased him around and he parked on the side of the other side of the station so i win ok. (: yup than we went to the park and went to playground a bit! played around and got spinny dizzy dizzy spinny sand climb up kerrys fat ass, dizzy spin up left right up down -lies down haha, oh and monkey bars i was a bit confused. anyways, after that we went to kill some ducks while half looking for a barbeque, and after wandering for ages we somehow managed to come to some fountains [hehe]. (: yay for fountains, fucking MASSIVE WATER FIGHT. D: i didnt start it, i was just innocently saying, oh look the water went down - sits on it, and than they started fighting. :) i got the spray in my face and than they took out cups and blahh too much to explain. it was FUNNNN, and i got soaking wet and somehow i got sunburnt.. on a 25 degree day with rain. :S good job cameron. i think im sunburnt idk. anyways, after that we went to bbq where some wannabe leb guys fucking take up the whole place and only let us use the far end of the bbq. and we manage to cook our meat and eat it. and while they were cooking, me luke claz and cadmus were walking around, oh yeah and they all took their shirts off orlando first than jeffery because they fucking want to show off their ripping abs. LOL . i dont know why anyone else would read this, no one can really understand what im trying to say anyways its just a rant to fill my excitement anyways, we walked around the park and came backk and than ate the food! yay, played with cadmus's speakers and he was bursting maplestory music and jap songs! yayayay. ahahahahahahahaha anyways, than i found a tree and i climbed up it and than everyone crowded me when i headshotted luke with the basketball and the leb guy came over and his like : yooo no sweating ' i think he meant swearing LOL ' anyways his like NO SWEATING OR I BEAT YOU UP. and everyones just like o.o and im fucking turning my head trying not to laugh. fucking asif you could beat me up you old fucking wannabe leb. anywayssss, than we went to the basketball courts very slowly but there was some krns all over it so we went and sat down and were filling up water bombs but nooo i cant fucking fill them up i broke like 30 at least and managed to make 2 or 3. (: and than we had a water bomb fight! yay. ahaha, claz clipped up her fringe. :) anyways, and cadmus was sitting blasting his music. we were fightingggg and we had 2 rounds, my first one i had only 1 and im like owned im gonna get someone - pegs at kerry and it bounces off his fucking back! WTF> and than i get hit 1/2. -next round i missed one, missed two, got another one from andrew and bam got kerry? again i think. too many people ahha, wells than the krns were gone so me and jason went to play basketball and luke came but than everyone had to leave so me and jason were left alone (: we played a bit than our parents were trying to come and took them like 30 minutes to find out where we were hahaha, i wont go into details. D: too tired anyways thats the first part of the day... after that i went to take fucking family photos. (: i rushed backk got changed did my hair for 2 min, got changed into a SUIT. SUIT (: and than went to the place where some photographer was taking our photos and my brother and i were like.. oh our stupid cousin is gonna make comments the second we get there. and we were like spot on, with the comments too. i fucking walk in and shes like OH nice pants "to my brother" and than " oh look cameron, you have a emo cut - corny laugh - " fucking private schooler, D: ahaha, nah she just got something wrong with her. thinks shes popular or something iddkkkk anyways we took photos with everyone and went in and played with toyss and since they're rich they have a fucking karaoke thing. and i laughed at it for about 20 min and than i had to go back home and get changed because we were going out to have thai for dinner. ok, i ate like lots of rice and than i ate all this weird stuff, and i had a good time just in general, i dont want to go in details. (: the whole day was just good. i was really happy. anyways, thats the sunday!

MONDAY: oh look cameron going out two days in a row, what the fucks going on. ;o well i went ice skating at 10:30 in the morning, and i just cant ice skate ok, this is my 2nd/3rd time where im not 5 years old, well than i went and i managed to fall over once when i wasnt concentrating. (: that was actually pretty fun, i think i got better... everyone was taking photos of each other haha, and stealing kerrys PINK hat, and putting hoodies up on ppl ;S yeahh.. we're weird. get over it. anyway, thats that part ;o i think im getting tired ill go into less detail on this. than we went to get lunch, and i didnt eat . (: wasnt hungry, but everyone had subway so we went to subway. came back in the airconn oh and my arms were so cold... so cold. til about the end of lunch they got back to only slightly cold temperature. they were like freezing the whole time.. was a bit weird. ;D okk we managed to get a seat after some fat indian with a pram took our seat and some other ppl we got a tiny table and crowded around it. ahahahahahahaha we went to rebel sport and were mucking around with the hand weights and than oh look im cadmus to i fucking lift old womans skirts up LOL , bloody cadmus his a funny guy. he was 'falling backwards' and his leg went up and lifted up here skirt ahahahaha, fucking hilarious. and than we went up and lay down around a table til 3:30 to watch old dogs, everyone left but me cadmus claz and kerry so we just watched it ok. i went got easyway and came back and they were all goooneeee but managed to find them and we went in and i was lonerised up the back by myself (: and some kids tried to sit on my face at about 10 min to the end... but the movie wasnt bad. i had fun i guess, they walked me back to my bus stop and than i got back ok.. oh and i forgot to mention claz sneezed and covered it up and i was just laughing , ahaha even thinking about it now makes me laugh. (: ahahahaha. ok ill stop. well that was my monday! its tuesday now haha. i took too long to write.

well it was a nice few days, i got school on thursday and i need to get books and stuff. have to do quite a few things, im going coaching on saturdays from now on from 11-5 every week til year 12. great, i get to meet new people, just what i fucking love doing! :) no seriously, i dont like meeting people, im too antisocial D: i cant talk for more than 30 seconds with someone without pausing. i normally end up in awkward silence. oh i got a haircut on the saturday, thats what i did on the saturday, got a haircut... its not too bad i guess, the guy didnt cut my fringe (: yay. ok tomorrow i have to work out hard! i've missed out too manny days, bludging around. gotta try hard!, who cares if its australia day. ahah. :) have fun back to school people, i gotta cover my books with anime!

konichiwa. (: i was just randomly browsing through my folders that i just randomly download things through and found some photos and since theres nothing much else to do since everyones afk on msn ill share it with you people if anyone actually reads this . :L and than tell a little random story about it. ;o

ahaha. (: i remember this photos my face looks sort of fat from that angle. anywayss, that was when my computer use to be downstairs and erin told me to webcam with her and i promised her i think so i said fine and she fucking screenshots me! D: think that was early 09' (:


ahaha, theres about 100 odd anime pictures in here but i'll just share this one. this was about early 09' too when i watched clannad! my favourite anime ever and than i had this as my dp for monthss. literallyy its tomoya hugging tomoyo (hah, theres names sound almost the same )on a cold winter night. (: did i mention i love winter its much better to be cold than warm because you can get warmer but its way too hard to get colder. i also played the game, thats was fun fun times.

ahh, i just realised the rest of my pictures are on my old computer but that doesnt matter. (: hope everyones having a great holidays. i discovered the best time to play basketball is at sunset because the sun doesnt shine on the court except its not too cold, not too dark its perfect. (: and when i get tired i can look at the skyy. there weren't many clouds today.

today. i don't know but i wasnt happy. sure i had fun, i watched alvin and the chipmunks 2, played basketball and hanged out with my friends, finally saw my best friend for the first time this holidays but im not happy. im even fucking crying while writing this post. somethings wrong with me.
i dont know why i practiced basketball so hard, i cant tell a difference, i feel like im getting worse. i think i broke, i tried. i just broke. i fucking just cried it out into my pillow, and if you say thats fucking gay, i dont give a shit. than i had long long shower singing quietly to myself and i thought i was better, i think i am now. alright, i dont want to talk about that.

ok ok , i think my heads on straight now. (: whats a depressing blog post D: i said i wouldnt write anymore, have to brighten it up. okk, i was watching one piece too when i got home while i was just sitting there waiting for my body to recover and thinking stuff over, i reckon i missed half of the stuff, but that sort of made me happy. yup. yup.. : ) smile cameron like imadori-kun. (:

if theres one thing i like better than anime its basketball! yay. (: today was all cloudy and crappy outside with all that dirty debris on the ground from the trees, but i still played eventually and i was like -swish -swish. (: magic touch today, but than my brother came out and i airballed D: ahhaha. everyday i watch nba, or nba highlights, or basketball mix's i want to play more and more! thats the only reason im looking forward to school because i have basketball games again! ;D can't wait.



i woke up at around 9-10 and i was like -rubs eyes -stumbles down stairs. huhh.. where did everyone go? my dad and mum were at work and my brother just went out without telling me so i was left alone all day until 3:54 . but it was ok, i went into the tv room and just lying around watching anime ! (: but ive already watched half of them because i was streaming until 12 when my download dies to peak D: until about 1:30 when i heard something go bang in the kitchen and i was like oh shit.. -listens carefully puts mute on. -another louder bang. OH SHIT D: -picks up knife. 'oiii , who the fuck is there? ' . -no sound. -sigh of relief. ahha, but i still ended up checking everywhere in the kitchen and i didnt want to stay downstairs so i ran back up to my room and shut the door. (: -runrunrun. no rolling today. :L

oh, and i had a texting spree all morning, i dont think i let go of the phone for more than 2 minutes until 1-2ish when i just stopped replying. i better reply soon. OH i was playing this game for about 20 minutes and than i had 1 life left and than i died when kathy called me and she wasnt even there! but shes not going to read this so its allll good. (: i was going to lose anyway.

hope tomorrow doesn't rain. i woke up thinking the day would be crap, but so far its pretty good. (: i wouldn't mind staying at home like this for a week but stillll i need to go out! i should've gone out to watch alvin and the chipmunks but i thought it might be a bit awkward going by myself with a girl all the way to parra. -nonames. (:

i went to the beach today and it was 33 degrees! 33, thats like... 11 x 3. :L how can i cope. but somehow i managed to not get burnt, make a human pyramid, play 10 minutes of cricket, not drown and use $21.60. but i guess it was worth it (: better than staying at home. i think its contagious im slowly starting to go out more. omg. D: twice in a week. somethings definently wrong. ahaha the photos on facebook made me laugh though. (: i think i doubled my 'photos of me' in a week. (81) now. omg D:

i haven't watched anything all week because my parents/brother uses too much download D: its pretty crappy i just want to sit here all day watching! i should move to japan or something they have like 500000000gb download at 10mb/s for cheap as . :)

uhh i should have a picture here shouldnt i.
haha, winter ending D; totally opposite of now. i really can't think of anything else to blog, im too tired, brains not working. maybe later. (:

"tomaranai omoi sono mama kimi ni tsutaetai, butsukeru yo, kiseki uso wa iranai"


i've been thinking about everything, every night, everything. last night i dreamed of all the things i wish could have happened, you could say its not too late, but it is. :\ watashi no yume . (: i think, someway ive become stronger as time passes. learning as you experience new things. those new things, become memories to be cherished.

"anata wa koi wo shita koto arimasu ka?"

one day, i hope i will have a snowy christmas. (:
summer just doesn't suit me.

alright, today definitely sucked. i got up early, just to go to an eye test all the way in chatswood and i had to stay there basically the whole day, didnt get home til 3:30 ! and than i was like yay, my friends coming over. ... guess not :\
'oh i have something on, sorry i told you so late.'
cameron: -sadface.
-thinks: another few more days sitting at home not doing anything-
i didnt have any energy to do anything when i got home too and i ate! ahhhhhh.
best thing was i finished the anime! wheee. -looks for another one. bad news is im going to be capped by mid month. freaking hell, my brother/dad/mum should just stop using the internet they only use it for useless things anyway, who the hell wants to watch some crappy movie which no ones ever heard of , or read crappy blogs on some korean actor or watch youtube videos you've already seen 50 times! aAAHHHHHhujhfgifha -ragequit.

i haven't been beach for over a year, maybe ill go this holidays. its basically my last holidays so why not -thinks of all the reasons why not. ahha, im talking to myself. (: kawaiiii~.

wahhhhhhhhh. i watched one episode of k-on! last night and i was like... hmm :\ this isn't that great. -this morning watches the rest of it. OMG D: i love it WHATT IT DOESNT CONTINUE PAST EPISODE 13!!!! that was sad, they should have an everlasting anime stream so that i never run out. its pretty cute, for some reason i think i have an addiction to slice of life genre animes or school based ones, makes me remember all the times which i never had! isn't that exhilirating.

apart from the facts that little things which will never happen to me make me happy, its fun. its fun to dream about all the things which you know will never happen but you hope they will, because thats what livings about, wanting things. i still remember one dream i had, i was late for work, and i was rushing to work and for some reason lebron james was there and i teleported to america, and he was going out and i chased up with him and than we were in a pokemon world and he started fishing and he caught a magikarp and i laughed and than i caught a dewgong and we ate it together. (: even though it seems impossible as long as it makes you happy, its worth it.

and just so everyone knows, im not going to post anything from now on unless i have an urge to blog, or if something i really want everyone but i know no ones going to read it to read. (: have a great summer.~

YAY. (: im finally going out to do something this week, and i have this funky blog counter ;o ahaha.

well, on monday im going shopping.. than my friends sleeping over and thats 2 days! and than on --counts days with fingers, on friday im going to watch avatar' finally after what.? 3 weeks!!! or close to that i watched invention of lying instead of avatar because someone was going to watch it so we decided not to watchh what a waste but at last im watching it (: its meant to be good and my friend said theres blue smurf alien sex ;o you have to look forward to that.

looking forward to a great week, the first of 2010 ~ hope your weeks fun too.

oh.



happy new year everyone. (: hope your year is colourful, fun and happy as mine is going to be, hopefully :L forget the past, move on and leave behind all your regrets!

yay. i went for my first drive for 26km for 1 hr 5 min complete with 4 three point turns, 4 times parking and about 50 roundabouts... :L I DIDNT CRASH. anyone want to congragulate me? (:
it gets pretty tiring though. :\ i was like OH SHIT A HORSE, and than about 50m on OH SHIT HORSE SHIT D: ahaha. and than i ran over it on purpose but my dad wouldn't let me drive home on the freeway even though i could've done it because thats just how good i am . (: im not overconfident todayy ;D

okk thats all. I DIDNT CRASHHH WHEEEEE.