redemption.

ok. i GIVE UP. no more depressing posts from now on peoples. (: no point getting sad over something, even if it hurts your feelings who gives a shit! MOVE ON. OPTIMISTIC THINKING!!!!!! . it works. sometimes, i just happened to be in front of the tv this morning and there was a travel thingy on south korea, and all these buddhist monks and how they give up desire and wake up at 4 in the morning to pray. doesn't that sound like such a good life, relaxing, not like what i thought i wanted to be, it changes. maybe ill convert to buddhism. meditate and clear my mind of all desireee. SOUNDS NICE. :] like this fake buddhist monk all white, and awesome looking ahahaha.



ok my original plan for life was in chronological order:
-get through school with good grades, and make lots of friends .
- go to a good uni with those friends and get my masters in whatever degree which was sort of fun, not too many hours so i could have decent leisure time with my future family, and GOOD PAY.
- get married, have 2 children and live happily until i retire at the age of 60-65. and than live happily for the rest of my life, until my kids have grandchildren and than die peacefully surrounded by people who care about me.

my dream plan for life in chronological order:
- go through school, in first grade basketball by at least year 10, U18 div 1 for norths and play nationals, and be able to dunk by year 10.
- go to a good uni in america which could get me into a good NCAA team like michigan or ucla, than move on to NBA~ join a team with my favourite players and play til my hearts content of what i love, with the people i care about, and enjoy life. retire when im 35-40. perhaps get a job as nba coach until im 60-70, than live happily with the same family as above.

my future plan for life !:
- get through school with marks which won't make my parents sad, and will get me into a decent uni with/without 'friends'.
- go to uni and get into any profession which makes me happy, despite the pay as long as i can live a happy and relaxed life which is too troublesome andd.. and.. with a beautiful family as above. (:
- take up somethings like martial arts, buddhism etc. travel as often as possible, and maybe move to japan/korea if i ever learn how to speak japanese. and i love korea and japan. -deep sigh which isn't very manly. :L

OH. i wonder what they'll do with computers, are they just going to keep on up'ing all the specs on everything, 1gb ram, 2gb ram, 4gb ram .... 1tb ram. etc. or is there going to be like some new crazy thing better than a computer! i can't wait, but i dont want to grow up :L
its good being young, not too many troubles, you don't have problems with health as much, you don't have to support yourself, and you have lots of freedom compared with a day to day job unless your like a born millionaire and don't have to work, but than even if you were you won't have friends to do things with unless they're all millionaires too! see my logic. so it's best being a kid because you all go to school, and all your free time lines up!

(: never think you're too old for anything, too young for anything, too dumb for anything ,too smart for anything, too anything for anything, just do what you want, when you want, whatever makes you happy and live a relaxed lifeeeee. whee. (: thats so cliche' with the little ' on top of the e. ;D