redemption.

two years have already passed since the happiest and saddest moment of my life to date but its the sad moment that persists even into my dreams or at the moments when i expect it least.

its strange how such a small moment can throw you back into that moment of loss. i dont know if its a by product of how my adult life has progressed but that sense of friendship, happiness and joy from having a best friend who has been with you through the good and bad is gone. it can't be replaced, only treasured for the time it was there.

my memory is hardwired to forget things that hurt me but the time we spent becomes clearer as time passes while everything else becomes blurrier. even if everyone else forgets you as a friend, you will always be in my heart as my best friend and i can never forget the pain that tore through me realising i would never be able to see you again while we stand on this earth. i wish i couldve been there for you as a better friend through the years.

life is precious and even if there are constraints holding you down, health, finance, love, don't forget that it's life and you only get it once. there are a million things material things i could want in this world but its the immaterial things that truly make it worth living.