redemption.

long time no blog.

my life has been a real rollercoaster of ups and downs throughout the past year and a half. but really life is a rollercoaster of ups and downs. theres so many questions but theres never enough answers and if you keep seeking questions you're only damaging yourself until there comes the point where sometimes you don't need an answer. i've really changed in particular these past six months. everytime in my life i feel like i have a change i don't think that i'll be changing for any better because im at the point where i feel like im at my highest limit but everytime i think that something new comes through and makes me feel like ive changed again. but again, thats life and even though its a rollercoaster of ups and downs, i want to know that i'm able to fight and choose by myself where that rollercoaster is heading towards because in the end, if you can't make your own decisions and be confident in your own decisions, then you have nothing left to be confident in. one of my only rules in life is that when i make a serious decision, that i can't go back on it and that i'll never regret it and that has guided me and helped me be more direct in my life and direction is really important... more than you'd think. i can always aimlessly have thoughts, aimlessly go in a general direction, however when you're able to pinpoint that direction and know where you want to be thats when you'll start to really feel better about yourself. that pinpoint for me is in the distance, and i want to keep rising there.