redemption.

i've been dreaming a lot lately. i don't really remember much though. yesterday i dreamt i was in korea once again. its sad really, thinking of all the wants, all the needs, all the shoulds and all the coulds. i don't know what i'm thinking lately, i can't really keep a level mind. i don't even know what i want. i can't get what i need.  i can't follow the shoulds, and i miss out on the coulds. honestly, i don't know what gives me motivation to keep going on to the next day lately, theres just been nothing. these last few weeks just feel empty. don't know what im hoping for either.