redemption.

the pain you left me, the pain you made, it will stay forever. whenever i think of that time, all the times that you lost my trust it just stirs me up and renews that pain. people aren't worth the effort. i've heard it time and time again, if people want to be in your life, they'll make the effort. all i feel lately is im forcing myself.. im forcing myself to make conversations with people, im forcing myself for everything. ive lost my energy mentally, not physically and nothings worth anything anymore.

girls, no matter how beautiful you are. you're not worth the chase.
guys, no matter how much you say, your actions don't follow it.
friends, where are you when i need you, im only there for your convenience.

im not some second option, fuck off.