redemption.

don't you want a moment where you can tell someone, she is my weakness, she is my reason, she is my everything. that moment when all worries disappear and its just you two. when you're perfectly comfortable with one another. its just hard now. my heart is uneasy, my body feels weak and it just like im only living on each next day hoping for better. people say you deserve better. deserving and getting are two different things. even if you deserve the best person in the world possible who would treat you right and love you indefinently, make you happy and just be there for you forever, you may get nothing. even if you deserve the scum of the earth, you may get a beautiful person.. nothing is fair.

listening to its not easy - five for fighting..
don't even know why.