redemption.

i've come to that point in life where nothing really matters at all. not one little thing matters. my morals are still there, i stay by my friends because they're the only ones, along with my family, who are going to be there at the end of the day. people are overrated, they are made out to be so much more complex and all, sometimes you think there is more to a person but in the end they're just how you perceived them to be. how you wish you didn't perceive them to be and its just... you really just don't care anymore.

i'm over the stage of everything, i miss good friends like felix who are responsible and just live life the way it takes him, i really respect him for it. i saw him for the first time in a while the other day, realised how much i missed him, had to tell him. (: its those moments when you feel you have to say something, not our of necessity of the situation, not out of pity or anything else just because its true and they deserve to know it. but seriously, the world is made out to be so much more complex than it is, its people, the way they think and how they do things that make things more complex, live life simple. when you have enough time to not care about things, thats when these things really sink in. im honestly just at the stage where i don't care. not a great thing, but not a bad thing.

^ i forgot to post everything above the other day. i had it typed up x)

anyways, im listening to adele - someone like you by sungha jung like the instrumental and thats devo enough. he's seriously an amazing guitar player, it makes me want to play but i only have left handed guitars in my house and i lack motivation to do anything. i don't even know what im doing anymore, money is just disappearing before my hands. its really quite sad. :\