redemption.

wow. i just felt a sudden wave of hopelessness, insecurity and uselessness.its like you know you're being used, you never get credit for anything you do and people just take advantage of you and everything you think, do or even ... just everything. i really wish HSC would just end now so all my fantasies would come to a halt as time just keeps on flowing.

sometimes, i feel like people depend on me or that i just have a need to want to help them... but then again, the shitty feeling when you realise they dont even need you or they dont even want you to help them... or you're just beingia negfnbeaeaaefah....its amusing how my craving for kbbq turns into an asian orgy. there goes the chill.