redemption.

my heart sinks a little sometimes, it really does. when i see something, when i hear something, when i realise that im just there, feel like im being used, what a depressing feeling. i try to replace some of that devoness with other things, i use to play games but HSC prevents that, i try to be friendly to everyone and make sure other people are happy so that i can be too but in the end, sometimes you realise its not working or you realise you're the only one who isn't happy and fuck. what a devastating feeling.
back to my fourunit paper. 1T for life.