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// On :April 20, 2011
just for everybodys viewing pleasure, i will show you something lovely. LOL. [: an extract from my lovely luvo folder.
HAHAHAHA.
wasn't that lovely. my lovely transition over the last few months.
HAHAHAHA.
wasn't that lovely. my lovely transition over the last few months.
i still retain that i have never spiked my hair, that one was cus my hair was so dead it just stood up. i look so lovely and white. don't i? (:
anyways, my beautiful days gone, my beautiful hair gone and its back to being disturbingly short and fizzy. that was the main point. it dies worse than usual on the sides, and my fringe is ugly as ever! :D
okay, now to talk about something else after i astonished somebody with my luvo spam. i resisted posting up my hair now cus its all short, and i already have pretty dam bad regrowth, don't lift my hair up! haha, i'm probably going to dye it back to a medium-brown or maybe black in a couple of weeks!
i have been forced to like.. question a lot of things during these holidays and have concluded i am what i am. i can't be anything more, don't ask for more, don't ask for less, i don't know what i want from life and i don't know where i'm heading but my friend made me think. he was telling me that whats the point of all of this, say you get 99.95 atar, nobodys going to remember that even 5 years from now, and then when you're dead, you're just dust. i have been living my life trying to be happy, thats all that really matters isn't it, have those moments of temporary happiness to attempt to reach a point of permanence?
also, you know when you're attempting to recognise someone... you know i think carefully, sometimes i just like pause for a moment and like completely examine somebodys face, details and everything. i know that sounds sorta stalkerish but like ... it makes you think about how much you really know about a person. i also been thinking how i will never be able to look from another point of view, im restricted to first person my whole life.
also, my devo meter have gone on overload. my holidays is over, and i have nothing to show for it! i started out thinking i will make another great holiday, i already had two preplanned things which were going to great, meet all my friends i haven't seen in a while and new people and boom. cut me down, one managed to remake which turned out alright but yeah. its all over. HSC. fuck my life, i can say it over and over but its not going to stop the reality that im not in year 10 anymore, im in year 12, i have hsc and after that my life is in full kick. (: bring it on?
anyways, my beautiful days gone, my beautiful hair gone and its back to being disturbingly short and fizzy. that was the main point. it dies worse than usual on the sides, and my fringe is ugly as ever! :D
okay, now to talk about something else after i astonished somebody with my luvo spam. i resisted posting up my hair now cus its all short, and i already have pretty dam bad regrowth, don't lift my hair up! haha, i'm probably going to dye it back to a medium-brown or maybe black in a couple of weeks!
i have been forced to like.. question a lot of things during these holidays and have concluded i am what i am. i can't be anything more, don't ask for more, don't ask for less, i don't know what i want from life and i don't know where i'm heading but my friend made me think. he was telling me that whats the point of all of this, say you get 99.95 atar, nobodys going to remember that even 5 years from now, and then when you're dead, you're just dust. i have been living my life trying to be happy, thats all that really matters isn't it, have those moments of temporary happiness to attempt to reach a point of permanence?
also, you know when you're attempting to recognise someone... you know i think carefully, sometimes i just like pause for a moment and like completely examine somebodys face, details and everything. i know that sounds sorta stalkerish but like ... it makes you think about how much you really know about a person. i also been thinking how i will never be able to look from another point of view, im restricted to first person my whole life.
also, my devo meter have gone on overload. my holidays is over, and i have nothing to show for it! i started out thinking i will make another great holiday, i already had two preplanned things which were going to great, meet all my friends i haven't seen in a while and new people and boom. cut me down, one managed to remake which turned out alright but yeah. its all over. HSC. fuck my life, i can say it over and over but its not going to stop the reality that im not in year 10 anymore, im in year 12, i have hsc and after that my life is in full kick. (: bring it on?
