redemption.

i was going to post when i got home, but changed my mind, now i changed my mind again and i decided i should post yeah. (: keep the spammers who spam my blog happy. :D pity i deleted all their posts and banned their ips and reported them as spam. hehh.
alright on to my week.
shall we start at my totally awe inspiring weekend? haha. it was actually quite hectic for me.
first of friday?
well alright, my friday afternoon everybody hanged around at school before we went to watch step up 3 ! all the jap exchange students, like actually all of them were there, practically anyways, just took about 20-30 photos before we eventually all shoved into one bus to wynyard. :L haha than me and some others walked ahead to the cinemas, and met somebody, we hanged around a bit before half of them ditched us, and that somebody left after a while. (: step up 3 was bloody $22 but it was alrighttt, we had to sort of split up to watch the movie into smaller groups and my friends cousin has huge eyes and they're too close together for an asian, anyways that was a good movie. :D i liked it anyway, lot more dancing than the other two.
moving on to the funnest day, saturday! hehe. :D went to a friends house after my crappy coaching, i got to drive yay... :\ didn't smash though! haha. (: 30 hrs 10 min now. well, got there and after about an hour everyone arrived, we played guitar hero, made some food, played some basketball and everyone socialised, i didn't really talk to any of them that much, but still i think im starting to feel more confident in myself. :D even though they're just jap exchange students.. never going to see them again. didn't even say goodbye to them. :s what a pity, im really bad with goodbyes though so yeah.
and now onto sunday, i was initially going to go out but my friend said he couldn't but than about half an hour before i had to leave to get to where he wanted me to go we went out, than went pancakes on the rocks, oh my gosh, never been there but it was pretty nice although it was fairly expensive (: oh and met another person and their jap exchange billet while we were just walking to the pancakes on the rocks, bahha. i was like :o sort of made closer friends with some of those guys, guess its good in a way. anyways, went opera house after that, met two more billets who were just sitting there but left them because they were going to explore opera house and walked back to wharf 6 where all the year 11s were going on a cruise with their billets. i had to go back home and do my economics so yeah that was sort of dead. :D
but i had fun, thats last time i saw them. didn't see them off this morning, what a pity yeah? hehh, obviously better that way. i don't want no non-attractive girls hugging me. (: no offence, unless they're my friend. but these people i didn't really know, hehh. :s
anyways thats my brilliant weekend not very interesting yeah? haha.

oh. onto monday, first day when they're all gone, they left at 9am, but what a pity i couldn't see them off because i had morning class yeah? :D sort of saw one of them who came into the classroom for a bit before she left, sort of chubby one (: she has a beautiful voice though. anyways, she didn't even see me, or recognise me so what a pity again. :D haha, really should get some new phrases cameron!
afternoon i had basketball training for the first time in like two years or something, didn't have a coach in my last team. and it confirmed i am extremely unfit, i knew i wasn't good at doing too high intensity things, because i get extremely lightheaded and can't see straight or anything but this was to the extreme. it also made me want to throw up. half way through the training, everyones fine except me. :\ i really have gotten unfit, 12.7 beep test, probably get 6 now. D: anyways, i was so lightheaded i couldn't even keep my head up, couldn't breathe properly and i felt like i was about to throw up. managed to make it to the bathroom before i attempted to throw up, luckily nothing was inside my stomach! YAY :D hehh.. just sat down for about five minutes until i could see clearly enough to walk straight without looking too uncoordinated, don't want people worrying over me, make me look like a weak boy. D: well that was my day. (:

think i'll talk about something more. let me just think of something, i really should note down things when i think about them so i can come home and blog about them shouldn't i? haha. -slaps self around a bit. just found my merit certificate, did i say i'm trying out for prefect? probably shouldn't because even if i do somehow get in, some teachers hate me so they'll disqualify me out somehow and the other teachers don't like me enough to stand up for me. :D thats just one reason why i don't like my school. not going back to regrets, umm.. -thinks LOL that party thing for july 16th is still on my desk from when that asian girl gave it to me when i was at pool in the holidays.. umm. -thinks. oh i still have a bit more to go on about. i don't know who my real friends are :\
think i'll make a new paragraph for this.
my original friends were the people which played basketball (in high school). should i go further back? nah, shouldn't. only have one white guy whose sort of my friend from back then, and another one who still goes to my school but i don't really see that much, guess i talk to him though on the way home if he happens to be walking with me cus he lives two streets away, that first guy mentioned lives just up the street. anyway, umm. yeah, the first people were the basketball people, when we were all innocent year sevens and didn't care about how cool people were as long as they wanted to be friends, times change huh, i guess i made some pretty 'cool' friends, but boom. just disappeared like that. replace them with fucking signaporeans. fuck those guys. :\ they always disregard me, thought they were my friends, until sometime at the end of last year, i realised other people are more like friends than those guys ever were. there is always that exception, there is one guy i think i can always call my friend, oh my god. D: getting emotional cameron haha. get out of here, um. than theres a few of the others, they'll talk to me when other people aren't around but when im there, they just disregard me. ignore me, like i'm just another useless piece of trash lying around. they can just integrate other people in like that, ignore me whose been with them since year 7 like that. i don't know how, even.. urgh. not even going to talk about it. anyways, i'm stuck in a group of my other friends, they live closer to me anyway, they're nicer people in general, may not be the coolest, or the prettiest, but they're there for me and thats what fucking matters now. i don't care anymore, i've really lost sight of everything i've been going for. sure i'm still attempting to do this and that, oh look cameron you got top of maths in your class, woop de doo. nobody cares. do you know how hard i had to strive to make it to there? do you even give it one thought? i think about lots of things, everytime, how hard does that guy work? what does that guy do in his spare time? i wonder if that kid worries about having friends? i'm always worrying, stressing over one thing or another and no. thats just not good. no. i'm growing up, im already sixteen, too late for everything, ive missed the golden opportunities in my life, but got to keep pushing on. should've been where i am now, three years ago. san nen mae deshou?