redemption.

fine fine. (: cameron will make one post before his long, weary, hauntingly, study excessive, tormenting term finally kicks into his tiny head. :D i worked it out. i will have no actual free time where i can have fun ever. :\ maybe short periods of fun, but being exposed to short periods of fun just make it oh such more painful when its over and the long wait inbetween for the next period of fun. uh example.. playing one intense basketball game like my grand finals, win it and than your all warmed up and before you know it its over. and look what now? i won't play another basketball game for practically ever. :\ next game will be for grade sport hopefully.. i should get in ;s otherwise the coach is giving me false hope, ill be year 12 for this season! OLDEST. :D kick some year 9 butt. hahh. anyways, my thursday night games are over, not due to my behalf, i really want to continue playing i do. i'd say its karma but i don't like that word. i ditched my original team from year 7 to play with my other friends team which i played for at lidcombe even though i don't enjoy playing with them as much because they have poor teamwork, they are all individualistic, get up on themselves occasionally and just not fun to play with however i decided to join them and ditch my other team forcing them to disband. oh look at another dumb decision in my life. :L that team got kicked out because the association is racist pigs and than im stuck on no team, and great. there goes my last season of basketball, way to ruin my highschool dream. all i ever wanted was to backboard pin or dunk in a game. ): not even in a game, just anywhere :\ never gonna happen, backboard pin needs a game because only gonna get it off a fast break and dunk.. with the exercise im doing, give it another 5 years after i finish uni and can finally start exercising. D: kick a little bit of motivation into me yeah?! (: well there goes that dream. ^ scroll down to other post where i posted my dreams someplace and just cross them all out in red as fail . someone do that for me? thanks :s just guess my password. shouldn't be hard.
oh goodie. i would redraw or post my fun graph for the holidays -> school on but im really not in the mood for that either. ;s hmm .. oh . back to school shall i , got maths test next week which i will start studying for tomorrow. or perhaps today if i can finish my english/write this basketball article/do my jap sheet. i'll probably stay on msn until tuesday though. than those last few days ill just nerd it out. :D or perhaps just stay on msn and not reply there. study needs frequent breaks, not good for me to just whack it around like that especially with my brain capacity :L it can't take itt. oh my.. that doesn't make sense. moving on ->
up for a big next year and a half. got to keep my mind on track, keen, motivated and all. :D don't give up cameronn. you can do it if you try! -rahhhhhhhhhhhh :D heh. off to do homework now, its a miracle. that picture sort of makes me sad :\ don't judgeee. just play sadness and sorrow in the background and make it move a bit and your set;