redemption.

wah. i just felt the need i had to blog something because ive done basically every single bit of homework i should do and no ones talking to me on msn, so im just fucking sitting here nothing! WOW. D: i know. its sad. i really should get out more, people keep on telling me to go out and i say with whom! i go out almost everytime im invited unless i have something on and i change it if i can :x wah. anyways, i had coaching again today and everything just passed by so fast, i really prefer it than school. maybe its because theres girls in the class even if they are ugly shits. its much more interesting sitting in that corner ~
oh i wasn't in the corner and there was some 20 year old girl well she looked that old anyway behind me and it feels so weird with someone behind you! ahh, i dont like people behind me it feels like they're either staring at me or they're going to jump me! :L
for some reason that reminded me of the speeches in japanese where i learnt that ansatsusha is assasin and ansatsu is assasinate. ahahaa. (: anyways i was really happy the other day, and im not going to tell anyone why. its my little secret, and if i say that it makes people even more curious which makes me even happier! hah. :L it wouldve made me happy if it happened... but nooo. D; anyways, maybe another day.
well i only got a couple of weeks to exams so i really should study yes? no... maybe hah, i should study though. :D i have a jap test on monday i should do well in that but tomorrow i cant study that much! i have my asian grandfathers birthday dinner and you know what that means! more oh look cameron you look like an emo, oh your clothes are so casual oh why are you so stupid, you need to be more respectable and blah blah blah. :\ i get too much shit from people it really pisses me off. what do i do to them? its not like i go around insulting people. -sigh
anyways i had thai yestersday which was nice ~ i was hungry but it was probably more fun because i ate it with my friends i havent hanged out with in a long time. (: even if it was only for 40 min or so. anyways i also saw my friend from normo~ his all pimpish now. :D just like my brother! hah, i saw a photo on facebook of some girl holding a sign saying '-insert my brothers name- is a stupid gay' or something like that :L and comments saying he untags all real pictures of him! hahahahaha, his a good boy most of the time (: sometimes i envy him having so many people to talk to on msn, being better than me in almost everyway apart from smart. i think im smarter than him anyway... who knows.
i was watching densha otoko again this afternoon , watched the first episode and it was just too depressing to watch anymore. its just too unrealistic, a guy like that ever getting a girl close to that nice/beautiful/rich is the biggest bullshit ever. it would never happen get real. the english teacher at coaching made me more aware of realism :\ people only watch movies like that to help them get over the shit in their lives and make them think that things can always get better.sure it might get a bit better, but in my case it would hurt more than it would give me everytime. god im starting to not make sense ~ -rambles off .

ok thats long enough i think! time to find a picture to spam here to brighten up my post. hah this guys a genius! his cute little forum posts brighten me up , all that complex looking pro stuff! i dont know it just makes me a little bit happier.