redemption.

AHH. i dont even know what i wrote the last two times. i think i have memory problems, i can't remember much of what happened the last couple of weeks, its all been such a blur. everythings in like slow motion, but at normal pace.. :\ i dont know how to describe it. bah, anyways my internets been really slow and i just wasted 2 hours trying to watch things which took forever to load. i think i have homework i need to do, but im really lost about it, i dont know how to do most of it and the things i can do ill get bad marks for! maybe its the heat getting to my head, anyways i thought about it some more and im not over it. but i have to be~. theres lots of things i need to get over.. and i will put them down in a way that no one knows what they are related to but sort of know what they mean. (: if i can think like that, hah. :L
ill make a list of everything that annoys me and things i cant get over with yet which pop up in my head within the next 2 minutes:
1. being blocked on msn for 54 days. im not over that, and i won't be until i know what i did wrong.
2. being ignored over and over again by almost everyone.
3. being not taken seriously. it really really annoys me ahhh!
4. not having anyone who i can talk with about anything.
5. wasting my day sitting on the computer, not being productive and no one talking to me on msn which can be counted as a proper conversation. ;s either they go off about homework/dont reply or just aren't on. -sigh~