redemption.

today should be a happy day yeah? (: yeah, its a happy day.
to put it short.

• start of holidays!
• i won my basketball grand finals 42-38
• more happy yeah. (:

alrights, shall i tick off my bullet points haha. (: okays, today was the last day of school, probably about half the school turned up, and probably about a third left at the end of the day :s you know how it is, start of the day kicked off and i had japanese morning lesson, was going fine in that because we were doing a surprise test again ;s fun yeah? haha. last few days have been cold, esp getting on the train in the morning, that parts the worst D: and apart from my school jumper being completely hidious and cold, i live. (: got a crappy 50 year old heater in my room, doesn't even really heat up my room, and it will probably burn my house down if im not careful so.. yeah- back to the start of the day, i got into maths, just zoned out and im thinking, been thinking quite a bit cameron hehh, holidays aren't really that good. they get lonely, sure all the usual routine gets put off for two weeks, but everythings back to normal at the end, its like showing somebody a lollipop, giving them a lick, and taking it away. ;s but even worse, cus we have to study, we ..heh.. more like me (: sure holidays, you can sleep in, stay up late, do almost whatever you want, but its lonely yeah. lonely. totemo sabishii~ im voting right now, that i will go out.. 3 times this holidays. not because i dont want to go out, but because thats how many times ill get invited out to something which isnt completely stupid. :s good job cameron. but shall make the best of those three times yeah? :D hope everyone has a great holiday, don't miss it to much when you go back to school. im sort of looking forward to the jap exchange students and jindabyne!

on to point two, danana. cameron's basketball game, they're meant to make you feel happy, im meant to want to win, meant to show determination, motivation, want to get better, be better, be the best. ;s no cameron, your just another ordinary 6"0 guy who plays basketball, sure everyone might be thinking oh look your tall, but no im not. if i went to a proper league , i would play a fucking pointguard alright. do i look like a pointguard? maybe shooting guard? i can't dribble properly, cant shoot very well. you know. :\ well we won today alright. (: my last game with blue falcons, been with them since year 7. shall miss them, esp playing with my year 12 friend. his the best, great to play with him, unlike the team im going to, but.. peer pressure, and if im not there, hopefully he'll go study. i want him to do well. honestly. this next season will be my last season of playing basketball, probably ever. i have to make it my best, happiest. (: don't think ill be able to do it with the team im going to have. they're terrible hogs, not even good because they all think they can shoot the ball, they're not kobe bryant, given in a real situation they're going to miss everything. and i know it, they never give me the ball, i have to fight for it off the rebound. its a struggle playing with them, but they're the closest i got to friends now huh. ;s everythings sort of dropping around. onto my game shall we? there were quite a few people watching, as usual , my other friends said they were going to come, but couldnt. not that i blame them, they're not really my friends to be honest. i tried once upon a time, guess theres better people to hang around with than me huh. haha. :D anyways, the game went on, i got the first two points. good job cameron, yay - clap hands. and.. probably doesn't matter from my view point how i played. its probably better not to hear it yeah. (: ask someone else, if you care that much.

on to number three. happy (: smile. think i developed a happier tone to webcamming, heh. but not open enough yet, when i think of the word smile on paper i see it in an array of rainbow colours. use to be happier when i was younger in a way, but less mature, but still better, happier in that way. :D do the best with what you get, try hard and fight. bbashya ~ don't give up cameron.