redemption.

this is one step up. keep on moving up, one step at a time . (:
think you grew again cameron! not physically of course, haven't grown in around two-three years. ;D stunted, don't think i'll get any taller, but it doesn't matter, don't need to be taller, don't need to be different, don't need to change, just need to grow cameron, mentally. ;D think i have, my brains starting to move into patterns by itself, uhh.. i can say things without really thinking about it, especially with my hands on a keyboard. it just flows out, like water gushing down a waterfall is split by an obstacle, and keeps on flowing on and merges up further along the river, and all ends up together as one body of water in the ocean. (: its always been one, its just been trying to find that one. get that analogy? hahh. doesn't matter if you don't, my brains working a little more complex than usual today.

i realised i don't need to worry anymore, no more doubt, no more. whenever i even think of one negative thought, theres all these positive thoughts to counteract it. ;D people can forget about sad moments, example myself. my life was really fucked over when i was young. sure you might not believe me, but i was just some self-centered, attention-seeking yet lonely like all attention seekers are, fat little asian kid. don't believe me? (: i have photos to prove it, only really started to stretch out around year 8.

im happy okay, thats all in the past. its behind, think forward, move forward, think happy thoughts :D sort of started talking to a friend for 3-4 hours inbetween that paragraph so i lost my train of thought. but feel better than ever, reminds me of times when i watched drama in bed on my psp to sleep (: hehh... no comment .