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i find people who comfort people through lies the worst. people who place excuses for their wrong actions. you're not only lying to yourself but you're lying to everyone. and thats not helping, thats...
theres actually surges of shitness sometimes, where you just feel so crap about everything. nothing is going right, you feel like your days are wasted and here you are standing there being hopeless,...
guilt trapping people is the worst you can go. especially if its done intentionally. theres enough worries, enough insecurities i have with myself without people constantly pushing me to do things....
friendship requires trust. friendship requires effort. and most of all, you actually need to care.
theres been a wave of relationships around me lately. i dont know when they stopped caring but they...
when i look at myself in the mirror each day i get more and more disgusted. it began small, but it grew. when i was a kid i didn't give it a second thought, but when apperance starts to matter, its...
i just can't. i freeze up. there is nothing in this world that i can compare to you. you're floating, out of reach.
there are people like this in my world, i feel no matter how hard i try, i can't...
why does everything always have to be so messy. everyone is just going and going and going. why is there ever a rush. im meant to be in the happiest and longest break of my life and all i see is trust...
didn't know something so pretty could make you feel so sad. brings back other worries and fades othe...
time and time again all people do is prove my point. i don't need to hear things i know are wrong. i don't owe them anything. i owe no person in this world anything except my parents for giving birth...
its either everything you're saying is shit or all im hearing is shit. all i hear nowdays is self egotistical bullshit. sometimes i try to think optimistically and pretend that everyone feels the same...
when you trudge through life, any little thing can make you smile. equally though it can break you. its easier to be hurt then be happy. theres so many little things you wish for in life but honestly...
i can't get over what an amazing guitar player he is. just watching it alone makes me want to play guitar. i wish i had a right handed guitar right now. or a dog. need something entertaining and free...
i want a dog so bad right now. needs to fill in the human affection i don't receive. my mum tried to give me a stuffed dog, and said that if i got a dog she could kick it in one kick across the room.
also...
there are things that just remind you of people. its worse when you've been around them, think about them so much that you do those things by instinct. especially when you don't want to remember...
the once beautiful fringe that lay across my forehead. covered my insecurities, covered my worries and when it sat perfect across my head it felt like nothing could ever go wrong. better than a mullet,...
appreciating the smaller things in life that make it whole. other people are other people and i am myself. it doesn't matter what anyone says, what anyone thinks about me or anyone else around me, because...
don't you want a moment where you can tell someone, she is my weakness, she is my reason, she is my everything. that moment when all worries disappear and its just you two. when you're perfectly comfortable...
penguins my second favourite animal, panda first, something with black and white. and it got yellow beak too i guess, MULTICULTURAL!
far out asians are cu...
i wish i had a beautiful place, waterfall or something where i can just lie and relax. i've become stuck lately. wishing for things to happen, nothing happening... people always say the guy has to take...
a history of playing girls? don't give me that shit. you asked me about it already, the girl and my other friend held my hand first and when she tried to go further i backed off. thats not playing girls....
since your friend doesn't have the courtesy to remain decent, and i don't have the patience to remain neutral im going to say everything that shaped this choice:
your friend pushed us into it in the...
tagged by huy:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY...
i've come to that point in life where nothing really matters at all. not one little thing matters. my morals are still there, i stay by my friends because they're the only ones, along with my family,...
i have nothing much to say except that yesterday will be a day i will never, ever forget - to the grave.
my wish came true in a weird way. 11:11 11/11/11 you messed with ...
you know that feeling when you know that people are talking about you but you can't do jackshit about it. whether its genuine reason, good or bad. its still happening. i find it amusing how i wrote a...
heres a picture of my fat little self when i use to do martial arts. i miss it.. look at all those noobs around me, i'm the boss in my black uniform. HECTIC. :D this is how you do its kids, bow to master...
when you're up at 4:30am and you have an exam in two days... HECTIC. LOL.
jokes.
i need to sleep before 6:30 otherwise my dad will get up and be like wtf. D: probably not good :\ ITS SO HOT BUT... i'm...
hectic round two~ jokes... was pretty much the same as i expected once again but to top it off it was even more empty today than yesterday which was just tragic. i'm well over it and honestly, i knew...
dare you to move, like today never happened, today never happened.. maybe redemption has stories to tell, maybe forgiveness is right where you fell, where can you run to escape from yourself......
its...
you try time and time again and you get let down. you let yourself down. in the end its only yourself you're letting down. everything just makes it seem like whats the point in putting effort into anything....
eshays lads, one week til last exam!
devo life. got beaten 0-60 by a bmw x5. i don't give a shit if its a v8. my feelings are hurt. LOL. D: i really wish i could drive manual. chuck me an rx-7 please.
nothing...
its funny how good things can turn into bad things so suddenly.
take for example, you're playing adventure quest and then bam. you realise the two hours you just spent playing it was wasted because...
nba2k12.
there goes the rest of my HSC. wahh, must resist.
im feeling a little bit better after long sleep. my minds more clear and everything. its really almost the end of HSC and i gotta get out there...
i find it really really hard to respect people who pretend they like one person and then oblivious to other people hitting on them but then reciprocate that person's flirtations... its just hard to...
thats just fucking disrespectful, shallow and pathetic. people who are rude themselves, talk shit and just plain disrespectful to others, blocking people who are having a chat which is actually meaningful...
some people deserve to just be hit. there are some people that don't learn even after being hit, again and again and again. people say violence can't solve problems but in the end, eventually it will....
losing all motivation to work at library.
hypothetically speaking, say that somebody was seeing somebody or supposedly seeing somebody but then they like someone else at the same time. is that wrong?...
somethings are better left unsaid, somethings are better left unseen and inevitably, somethings are better left ignored. people try with all their might to ignore things, to forget things, to forget...
anyone ever have those times when you're just sick of the shit, need to go take some time to yourself. even if its only 10 minutes. you need to clear your head from all the shit thats going around you....
i honestly don't think people realise how hard it is being half white. i have to live with the disadvantages, have to live with the shit i cope, and live with the crap it brings with it. im not included...
still celebrating eighteen years alone.
people who do small things and think i don't notice but are doing it consciously... that just pisses the fuck out of me. its like they just do those small...
theres no need to throw yourself into the darkness.
there are people in this world who prefer solitude,
but there is no one who can withstand ...
you know that sudden wave of loneliness you get when its the middle of HSC and you're the only one online at 3:10am in the morning? nobody on MSN. nobody on skype but you just can't sleep. forever fucking...
