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shaking
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finished my exam and nothings changed.
i sleep. i eat. i drink coffee. i go gym.
now i need a job.
i will sleep. i will eat. i will drink coffee. i will go gym. i will work.
whats next.
nothing will...
i rewatched 5 centimeters per second after hearing this song again:
i was just reading...
"5 centimeters per second, the speed at which cherry blossoms falls. its an allegory to life.
acceleration...

i've calmed down. life isn't really a stand still no matter how much pain and agony you feel throughout your life. there are always new things, new emotions and new things to be found if you just continue...
how am i meant to keep going feeling like this. im hurting so so so so bad and i can't even tell anyone. it hurts so much and i cant deal with it... im barely making it through with a straight face...
i wish i could rewind back to a time when words meant something to me. when actions weren't the only thing i could trust. my dreams are overriding and trying to mimic a past reality but we are in the...
if theres one thing for certain, the heart and the mind don't move at the same pace. sometimes there are moments recently where i just suddenly lose myself and break down. when im driving. when im...

when you start getting older especially at ages like 21 you stop and think a little about where you're going in life but in reality splitting my life down into a summary isn't difficult. my life isn't...
its
my 21st birthday this saturday. i feel really young and like i haven't done
anything significant in my life up until now and even though i'm only 21, at
the moment im unemployed, no internship...
ive got a new theme for my blog finally. i think it might make it a little harder to read sometimes etc but i think it looks pretty cool so i couldnt resist especially since lately ive been...
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locked on this song. it hits deep. the m/v could be better though.
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long time no blog.
my life has been a real rollercoaster of ups and downs throughout the past year and a half. but really life is a rollercoaster of ups and downs. theres so many questions but theres...
somewhere, somehow along the way it came to a point where i can't live normally. i think when you love somebody so much that you can't be normal otherwise, when they're all you think about everyday,...
shaking and crying again. back to state one. all i need and want in my life is security and knowing that i can be happy being who i am with who i want to be with, but its not enough.
my biggest fear...