redemption.

 people keep on saying, capture the moment, live life to the fullest, look forward and never look back. i've been mindfucking myself, day after day for the last few weeks trying to bring myself...

incomplete. i've never been able to step forward, everything i do it seems like im falling backwards indefinitely. im still just stuck yeah, needing somebody, something to keep me going. the only thing...

you. you make me laugh when im feeling down. you make me smile when i see you smile. i want to hold you when i see you cry. i want to be there for you when you're feeling down. and i want you to type...

woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo. everybody, no more internal exams, i have no exams for 56 days until HSC. :D this is the life. im meant to be completely chill and all but even though my shoulders...

i  just realised i am the most tragic mother fucker alive. :( i always made fun of all those people which got drunk and couldn't remember shit i thought it was all bullshit and as if you couldn't...

i keep on telling myself i have a rational mind. that im not completely fucked up and non-sensical in everything that i do but each time i tell myself that, i lose a little of my sanity. honestly,...

  hmm. realising and following through are two different things. its so easy to say you want to do this, you hate this about yourself and you're going to change it, you're going to work hard toward...

totoro fingernails. a person i care about isn't feeling too great and once again, im too nervous and sitting back because thats the only comfort i can bring because im not even confident in myself. i...

theres several things in this world that just make your head spin. never knowing whether you know enough is one of them. i keep trying to shove more and more in my head and it just comes out the other...

  always stuck in that state of searching. never knowing, never getting, never living. ive been thinking, as i usually do in my sleep deprived state, my mum keeps saying i put too much emphasis on...

  im not as strong as you think i might be. its not easy to wake up each morning smiling. its not easy waking up each morning telling yourself everything is okay. its not okay thinking that everything...

everytime i watch maribelle anes, i can see the emotion in her eyes and it gives me hope. her words especially some of my favourite of her songs, it just touches me y'know. i've been doing fuckall lately....